Time Stops

Published on 6 October 2024 at 11:26

When you find out about cancer, they tell you a lot of things. What’s going to happen, you might get
sick, all of the side effects of whatever kind of treatment you’re going to have, and many other things
that I can’t remember right now. But they don’t tell you this One thing. Time stops.
It’s almost impossible to plan ahead. I’m not talking about like for your appointments and your scans
and stuff like that maybe support group meeting times and stuff along those lines. I’m talking about long
range stuff.
Everything becomes about The fight. If there’s any planning, it is about the fight and that’s not
necessarily a bad thing.
This Just kind of hit hard this morning as I looked at my coffee cups and saw my Gatlinburg cup. I don’t
know when I’ll ever go back. My wife Assures me that we will and I believe her. But even to make that
kind of plan requires space in my brain that I don’t have right now. That space is filled up with the fight.
I do mean fight.
People with cancer aren’t patients. They are fighters. Wanna start a fight with me? That’s a good way to
do it. I don’t say what kind of cancer do you have? I say, what are you fighting? It Is not a matter of
semantics. It is an absolute mindset. When I get up in the morning. I’m fighting when I do my exercise.
I’m fighting when I take my medication, I am fighting When I’m riding my bike,I am damn sure fighting.
Cancer is more than a disease. It is a absolute demon. Hell spawn from Satan himself. I’m not saying this
to Be funny. I absolutely mean it. There will be another post later on when I will explain exactly how I
feel about what it exactly is from a spiritual point.
Well, it’s Sunday morning. I had a pretty rough Saturday. I don’t know why but the day after I stop taking
my chemo pills for the week it really is the worst day. Sunday is usually a little better. Tuesday is my best
day and Wednesdays are pretty good too. After that my energy level start to fall again, which brings up
more issues about some things I’m going to have to face here over the next couple of weeks that I will
talk about at a more appropriate time.
I built this blog so if people who love me truly wanna understand how I feel they will have a place to
read my deeper thoughts and I feel obligated to open myself up here rather than over on some social
media site. If you are a follower of Jesus, I would appreciate your prayers if you’re not, I accept good
vibrations too, I guess.

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Finding Strength in Faith: Struggling with Cancer as a Christian

22 Sept 2024 13:31

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